Four years ago today...

Today is our 4th wedding anniversary. It is amazing to me how quickly the time flies. I think I will always hold our wedding day as some of my most vivid memories, which keep them young.
Mr. Thinkin' told me over breakfast, that marrying me is still one of the best decisions he has ever made. I said, "Well, I should hope so!", but I was thinking, yeah, me too.
When my parents called to wish us a happy anniversary, my dad said, it gets better, but it never gets earlier. And later when I repeated that to my mom, she said, is anything worth doing easy really? I love the honesty, and both are good points.
Sometimes I feel like marriage is one of the most painful things I have ever been involved in. Nobody can hurt me like that man can. But marriage is also the rock foundation on which our everything is built on. It provides better shelter than any other situation I can imagine and I love having a best friend by my side in everything I do.
So, Babe, marrying you was also the best thing I ever did. And I owe so much of myself to our relationship. My dad is right, things have gotten better over the last four years, but I wouldn't trade our time together for anything.

So, it's been nearly a month

I have been in a rather low spot, you know the kind where everything sets you off, and when you confide in your friends they tell you to get over yourself. Oh, you don't have friends that do that? Well...let me tell you. It makes you feel caught between, I have no one to talk to and maybe I am the most selfish person living.
The Thinkin' Too Much family ventured to Oregon at the end of September for about five days. I think it probably ranked up there in the 5 worst trips we have taken. Plus One was an angel, and we enjoyed visiting with some of our friends, but all in all it was a bust. I am still not ready to talk about my main issues with the trip, so I will save that.
Plus One is hosting a Harvest Party for 11 of his closest toddler friends at the end of October. It should be cute, and fun. I am not planning a whole lot, because I don't want to freak over trying to herd toddlers from one activity to the next. Basically, it will be more of a play date. We are looking forward to it and PO is going to be a bumble bee.
We currently have a positive hpt on record at our house, but we are really taking it slow and not telling people at this point due to our miscarriage in June. I am finding myself a bit more nervous about being pregnant again than I thought I would be. I suppose that is natural though? Mr. Thinkin' is in charge of deciding when we will share the news with whom.
My Discovery Toys business is slowly starting to build into something I need to work on almost daily. Thank goodness for those 2.5 hour naps. I am still a bit indifferent, so things aren't all the overwhelming at this point. I am even thinking of throwing in the towel after Christmas. We'll see now things are going.
I will write more soon, as PO will be 16 months in a couple of days.