Thinkin' Too Much

Exsisting in a bubble of confusion most call adulthood. Defining life while striving to be the best wife, mommy, daughter, and friend I can be.

Friday, September 16, 2005

Nothing much...


Not a lot to report from the Thinkin' household. We made a quick trip to Big Sky early in the week, as Mr. Thinkin' had a business meeting. The trip was stressful, in that we were only gone 26 hours and it is 4 hours each way.

We had the main hall in our house painted while we were gone. It turned out well. I was glad to have someone else strip all that wall paper.

Mr. Thinkin's aunt is in town from Nebraska. This is the first time we have met. She is a lovely lady and I have enjoyed listening to she and my father-in-law talk about the "good ol' days".

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Dining Room



This color is called Scuba, but I was going for Tiffany's Blue. It's one of those colors that changes with the light all day long. I have ordered gold silk curtains for the window. I also would like to replace the chandelier with something for dramatic.

Living Room

This color is called Mustard Bloom.

This is the wall the mirror used to be on.

What a difference!!





I am really happy with the way this room turned out. Now I just need to start saving for the area rug I have my peekers on.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Labor Day Weekend = Painting




Here are the before pictures of the two rooms (living room and dining room) that Mr. Thinkin' and I are painting this weekend. We recently had the white carpet removed and the floors refinished. They turned out much better than I thought they would and while the furniture is out of the rooms, we decided we should strip the pink wall paper and paint the rooms. And yes, you read that right, we had pink wall paper and white carpets! YIKES! But, how about those wood floors now?
So, the wall with the mirrors on it, turns out to be wood paneling circa 1940. I consulted our handy man (love him) and he removed the mirrors and then suggested the easiest thing to do, would be to just speckle the grooves and seal in with the stinkiest sealer ever and then call it good. It looks ok, and I will post pics soon, but it took WAY longer than I had accounted for.

Plus One was shipped away to stay with his grand parents so we could knock this project out without worrying about him.

Next project: Get quote to have wall paper removal and painting professionally done!

Saturday, September 03, 2005

14 months


Oh, my little man, how he is a changin'. I snapped this picture of Plus One after he found one of my night gowns in the laundry and got stuck in it while playing. He loves all things "silky".

This has been a hard month for the little guy. As his mobility increases, so do the bumps and bruises. Needless to say he is running instead of walking.

Just a few days before he turned 14 months old, we had a MAJOR lesson in the word HOT. While I was grilling steaks one evening, Plus One reached up and touched the outside of the grill. In a split second he received 2nd degree burns on the tips of his fingers on his right hand. I was standing right there, and though he screamed it wasn't until much later in the evening that I realized the seriousness of the injury. After a call to the doctor, it was determined that I would take him to the doctor the next morning. We made daily trips to the clinic to get the burns re-dressed for 12 days. I cried every night after he went to bed for the first several days. There is nothing as painful as having your baby injured. And I felt guilty for having it take place right under my nose. I put a sock over the HUGE bandaging the nurses wrapped his hand with to keep it clean and dry. He grew to understand that it felt better to have the sock on, because when it came off, it meant the pain of having the burns cleaned and dressed. I think the hardest part had to be that he was no longer able to suck his fingers (which he has done the whole time I have known him). Thank goodness for his silky blanket! He was just amazing the way he adjusted to life with your right hand in a sock. He gave new meaning to the word resilient at our house. He would let me hold his hand above his head the whole time he was bathing, and still played with all his bath toys as if I weren't there. There are so many scary things that can happen to toddlers and I am glad we survived this one. Today he is sporting a black-eye from hitting his head on the side at the park. I don't think the bumps and bruises will end anytime soon.

As for all other aspects of Plus One's life. He is sleeping less as we transition into one nap a day. And about every fourth day, he will still need two naps. I think he is eating a little less these days, but he still eats a whole sandwich at a time. Communication seems to change daily. He barks like a dog, hisses like a snake, and growls like a bear on command. He says Mommy, but only in a whine (very pleasant). We use the signs more and finished and I feel like he would use more if I took the time to teach him.

The sound of a train whistle scares him and occasionally so will a honking horn. He is super good about holding my hand when I ask him to. It still makes me a little nervous that he will go to any stranger that will hold him, especially if the stranger looks like a "grampa". He caught feeding the dogs nearly every meal. Little stinker!

Plus One is the light of our days.

Is it time?

Having a baby is starting to weigh heavy on my mind. Two of my friends have delivered healthy baby boys on the last two weeks. I thought Mr. Thinkin' and I should wait until the beginning of November to start TTC again. Holding those new tiny babies has changed my mind, and now I seem to have shifted into the "baby fever" mode. Mr. Thinkin' really wanted to wait until at LEAST September for work purposes, and of course those kind of things never set well with me. I love the financial benefits of him working all the time, but I don't like to think his career controls our lives. Who am I kidding?
I know that I shouldn't be worried, that we aren't pregnant right now, and that my body could probably stand the extra healing time. However, for some reason, I have this fear of never being able to have another baby. I loved being pregnant, I loved giving birth, and I loved all those sleepless nights I was learning how to nurse and care for my sweet new born. It is probably residual emotions left over from the miscarriage that this fear stems from. We stopped "being-careful" in January and here it is September and we still are not pregnant. I spoke in the Spring about needing to stop worrying and to remember that I am living on God's time, and being a control-freak just causes more problems. But where do you draw the line?